xandyxbassx

you don't even care.

2007-12-15T18:04:11Z

no more livejournal.
causes too much drama
even when it's only suppossed to be a online journal
that your friends can view
to get to know some personal thoughts
without having to ask.
all it does though,
is piss people off
and cause too many opinions.
no one is real.
goodbye livejournal
end.

backwards wars.

2007-12-15T04:03:04Z

the worst time i ever hit myself in the balls was during a lacrosse game.

i went to flip it around to the guy behind me

and i zimped it

flipperdip

right in the balls.

owwie.

p.s.
i wrote a bunch of new songs.
come listen to them.

xandyxbassx @ 2007-12-12T13:46:00

2007-12-12T21:53:07Z

i've decided to be brutally honest with the people in my life who annoy me.
pretty much the people who think i lie.
but the reason they think i lie is because
those are the people who ask me personal questions or constantly are an asshole to me.
so to get rid of them
i either say
'don't worry about it'
or
'nothing happen'
or
whatever i can say to get them to stop asking me questions.

basically,
i'm done talking to a lot of people.

i'll talk to my friends.
but i'm not going to associate myself with just
the people who i talk to.
end.

roobot roobot!

2007-12-12T20:23:25Z

today means nothing to me.

nothing gets crossed out.

2007-12-11T20:21:59Z

"i remember a time when you didn't need ***** to become calm and understanding again. i don't think i've ever seen you this down before."

my heart never hurt this much

"no one really understands that when we laugh, it's to drown out the pain. that's what makes us diffrent"

that's why we need to stick together and not drift apart.

"i miss being so close"

me too.

it'll all pass with time.
everything that's suppossed to happen will be.

for a minute there, i lost myself.

2007-12-10T20:08:13Z

today was the first time i ever really stared at you.
i'm friends with you and all.
but i never realized how attractive you are to me.
i spent some time with you today.
and you made me smile.
that's a rare feature.
to actually make me smile.
not the fake polite smile.
the real smile.
i liked that a lot.
you're physically fit, emotionally stable,
and most of all,
you're confident about yourself.
i'd like to get to know you better.
let's do tea.

that's another reason i really don't want to be seriously involved right now,
end.

p.s.
i wish ....... would be a little kinder to me
she's already done so much shit to me.
the least she could do is say hi or give me a hug or something.
i miss her.
regardless of her recent decisions.

mother, did i have to be so high?

2007-12-10T00:45:15Z

i think everything is gonna be alright.
i'm enjoying making new friendships stronger.
i have some old feelings brewing up about some people,
but i'm trying my best to look the other way.
i have my permit now.
christmas is coming up.
my dad's coming in.
i just feel really relaxed.
easy come easy go.
"no one's ever seen a dead donkey"

i'm just eager to be uncaring again.
i don't even mind that her and i aren't/are close.

p.s.

2007-12-06T20:58:07Z

it'll most likely just be a fling.
and if it is, i'm perfectly happy with that.
i'm just so glad to be appreciated for once in my life.
end.

i'm in lust.

2007-12-06T20:50:25Z

and because of that,
i was in such a good mood this morning.
running around, screaming, being obnoxious,
just like i used to be.
i was having a pretty good time too.
but as the day went on.
i realize why i'm also so quiet and down.
people are fucks.

espcially this one person
(whore)

btw. i have a new girlfriend.
she understands me.
i'm really excited (fanned).

that is all.

so simple in the moonlight.

2007-12-05T14:42:27Z

i needed this.

xandyxbassx @ 2007-12-03T17:18:00

2007-12-04T01:23:45Z

so i've been getting a lot of shit about my love life lately.
and i've come to a few conclusions.
i do everything on purpose.
and i never have any regrets.
i develop my opinion of people through the way they act towards me and others i care for.
i just wish people would get off my case.
nothing will really matter once i'm out of highschool.
so i'd like to explore the people i see everyday.
i find it therapuetic.
i'm not going to regret what i'm about to do.

i hope everyone can learn to accpet that.

end.

please don't make this harder.

2007-12-02T18:28:35Z

what causes people to lie so much?

executioner blue.

2007-12-01T15:28:10Z

it's a really hollow feeling really.
on the verge of caring, breaking down, anger, apathy, and frustration.
but i shouldn't
and wrong choices are/will be made.
love will be passed around like a basketball.
do i want to be a player?
or the played...
my heart is split in 2...3....4 people.
one i should 't care about but do.
one loves me, i don't love her.
one is my source of unexpressed feelings.
and one is only a memory.
i just want my head and emotions to stop spinning
so i can grab ahold of something
and stick with it.

p.s. i'm at hunters.
he just farted really loud!

growing beards and growing up,

2007-11-30T00:07:38Z

i've been thinking about the changes in my life so far.
and to tell you the truth, i'm quite pleased.
through all of the phases,
i'll learned a lot of things.
became wiser now then i would have otherwise.
but lately,
i've been thinking about aging.
and even though i'm only 16.
i feel that i really don't want to age anymore.
it looks like every year.
my beard gets longer.
and my jeans get tighter.
that's about it.
i just want something new.
i can't even legally drive on my own in america.
but if i were amish, i'd be married.
if i german, i could drink.
and if i were hebrew, i'd have the respect of a man.
i just feel like it's all pointless.
i hope something changes.

p.s. i cleaned the cat shit off of my keyboard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skanks a lot.

2007-11-27T20:54:17Z

things have been good lately, except.
i've been upsetting myself thinking about the past.
relationship wise.
and i've come to the decision that i don't want to date anymore.
i want to be free for awhile.
learn who i am,
and who the world wants me to be.
i'll come to a compromise.
and then i'll scope out the action again.
i tend to always have some girl around who bares the title of "andy's girlfriend"
and i never seem to like that set person.
i'll just play the outfield for awhile.
hit a few homers occasionally.
and call it a day.
there's only one person who i'm proud of for once dating.
and she's long gone.
i just need some rest.
that is all.

Bullets Made of Myself

2007-11-26T17:38:58Z

so i was shopping on black friday.
and i set my bags down when i was taking a break.
and some lady sat down next to me.
and i didn't think much of it.
even when she put her bags down next to mine.
she went to get up like a minute later.
and i even waved and said have a nice day to her.
the time came when i went to get up.
and my bag had vanished....

fuck you black friday.
thank you for making me waste 60 bucks.
end.

look over there! two women fucking a polar bear!

2007-11-25T01:52:26Z

disarrayed thoughts, tetris, american dream, marijuana, christmas shopping, black baby dolls, old women mean muggin', pokemon red version, new camera, whores, gettin' my dick wet, "fear and loathing in las vegas" the movie, chelsea, techno music, bob marley, daft punk, silversun pickups, shopping, shopping, shopping, the devil, julie, work, goodwill, passionless love, christ, drums, ever persistent drums!, cigars, cell phone, dancing, hate, kanye west, rogue wave, bass, mum, dallatore, hookah, death, addictions, pain killers, hook ups, acid trips, lust, peace, tranquility, turmoil, "fuck you ya old lady nignag", ashleigh, lost, lost...

things are easy
like you,
i like it this way.

false love and quickies.

2007-11-22T01:55:17Z

i feel good.
i actually feel good about things right now.
i'm really excited for the break,
and i just want to hang out with my friends and relax.
love isn't really an issue with me anymore
i love that.
i've been thinking a lot about friendship lately...
and i've come to the conclusion that i don't like most people,
but i always seem to tolerate them,
even once they wrong me.
i think i only have 5 or 6 people i actually consider best friends.
the rest are just people i talk to.
and right now, i' even fine with that.
that's all.

forever feels like home.

2007-11-18T20:43:33Z

forever feels like home
drowning feels like crushing depravity
now you’re dying alone
desperate insanity
talking out to a new tone

angrily distraught
never quite free
crashing into life
social shopping spree

avoiding the truths, the loves and the lies
now only do you weep
as your inner-child dies

forgetting the old
wanting the new
progress now made
with the one you wish to woo
setting out your hopes and dreams
only faced with crushing defeat
agony felt
with all the deceit

had in your grasp
was one girl’s heart
and now you lay dying
should have gave up from the start
not knowing what would happen
i suppose would be a greater pain
but now on your knees
your ‘knowing’ led you to be slain
if you cared enough
and maybe would have shone
you didn’t deserve to die trying
knowing forever feels like home
why does forever feels like home?

jesus creeping shit.

2007-11-18T03:39:56Z

i have no idea what's going on.

i miss everyone.

i miss everything.

i just want to wake up again.

shine on you crazy diamond.

2007-11-15T22:56:31Z

acid, "destroy the body to kill the head", chelsea lawson, 'the postal service', people i talk to vs. friend, heartaches, medicine, holes in the brain, thursday, colonies of ants, "fear and loathing in las vegas", indiffrence, ryan dallatore, college, theory, doctor, future, kids, wife, grow old together, death, heaven and hell?, 'God?', memories, "the persistence of memory", paintings, fredrick and martha, windows, mirrors to the soul, eyes, green, colours changing, winter, racism, equality, money, cancer, destrution, war, pain, pain killers, drugs, acid.

what do you get for pretending the danger's not real?

2007-11-15T01:24:27Z

livejournal first entry:
friends, communism, cigarettes, 'bright eyes', hunter landock, love/hate, natalie oros, conspiracies, rebellion, beards, "you're a wildcard, you fit your player", lacrosse, germany, england, jibbs dilano, sinful tidings, agnosticism, pigs and dogs, julie <3, chain smoking in the bathroom, lies, stab wounds, 'pan's labyrinth', chemistry, highschool, photography, the "real" me, bestfriendship, open mic night, brianna hollick, sex, my brother, 'the cure', 'the smiths', bass guitar, "candy's dandy, but liquor's quicker," depression, lonely, mother dearest, heartbreak, therapy, angst, freedom, yes!, art, fieldtrips, wasting away unheard, deafness, distortion, opression, abstraction, love/hate, apathy, something better...